Saturday, April 9, 2011

problem

Honestly, I don't like to fight with others...and I really don't like the situation that I am facing now...I am really fed up for this...
Why do we keep arguing about this issue, I thought we already have agreement for this...I thought you are ok already...probably is me who overestimate your EQ....
I don't like this....I really don't like this!!!
Every time when you raising this topic, I really feel like running away...I want to escape from this....
I hate it very much!!! Why can't you think in other way around?Why you keep thinking in that way? Is it fun for you to argue with me?
I really think that if we keep on arguing on the same topic...our distance will be pulled as far as possible....I would try to tell lie...but I don't want this to happen...I really don't...

horoscope?personality?

I am wonder, is it true that one's personality is determined by his/her horoscope?
Or...it nothing about horoscope...
I am wonder about this, can someone has an answer for me?
In my point of view, I am not sure that is my personality being occupied by my horoscope...but I think that it's quite true in someway...
I don't like to being controlled by others, I don't like to follow what others instruct me to do, I like to break the rules, I don't like others to be angry with me just because he/she doesn't like me to befriend with someone....
YES! I am a gemini....a gemini who always looking for freedom and hates other to control me!!!

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Stop or move??

Stop or move on? that is a BIG question for me
Actually, there should be no choice for me
This is what I chose, this is what I like, but it killing me now
I can never imagine that I will end up like this
Life is full of unwillingness, pressure, stress, weary....
I have only negative view about life at this moment and I don't like it, seriously

Sometimes, I actually look back, keep thinking that "am I actually making the right decision?", "what would I be if I not coming back?", "am I regretted?".....

I don't like answer question, especially question like this......I cannot regret for what I've chose...

BUT sometimes I feel like quit....am I really that fragile or maybe lazy?unable to take stress?useless?

YES, I am useless all the time....I can't do anything...I can't....

but I can't stop or quit...no because of myself but also for my family....my parents have high expectation on me...I can't disappoint them...I've once hurt them and let them down...I am not going to let that happen again...

sigh....nothing I can really do....what can I say....c'est la vie....



April Fool?!


    I hate it when I have so many things to do at the same time
    I hate it when I am not feeling so well
    I hate it when my stomach not feeling well

    I hate it when I am in a bad mood
    I hate it when I seriously need someone to be with me now, but there is no one around
    I hate it when I need someone to talk to, it can only be done on facebook, msn, sms
    I hate it when I am so moody for everything
    I hate it when there is a test coming and I still unwilling to study for it
    I hate it when things are only being half done
    I hate it when there is no one understand me
    I hate it when I am depressed or stress, all I can do is to complain in this F*** place!
    !I hate it when I hate myself
    I don't like this AT ALL!!

Monday, March 7, 2011

annoyed

dunno y recently feel like so annoying...thr are so many things going on...even though they are not quite urgent or important...if i cn say dat...all the assignments, reports, exams really push me to a dead end...i gt no way bak n i cn onli keep moving forward by doing all of those one by one...n finish all of them no matter if im capable of o wat.....haiz....sometimes...u will c going to university is good but i tell u wat.....it sux at all times!!! esp when all the workload coming together and when the deadline is coming nearer and nearer....all u feel is onli PRESSURE, STRESS and nothing else.....i reli wish i cn enjoy my university life....bt it came out dat i ct....dunno y recently im so worried about everything in U.....although thr no class test coming....bt i still think of studying dat..i keep thinking dat i mite fail or not doing good enuf for my test.....n keep on thinking i DUN hav time!!!!yes!! TIME!!! omg....time is all i need at this moment....keep doing assignments and reports...walao ye...dat is enuf to make me breathless....i NEED air!!! i need freetime...n overall...the most important is....though i so worry about everything...i still NOT willing to do dat....i m way too LAZY at all times!!!gosh!!can anyone help me from being dat lazy???? not feel so good recently....reli wish dat i cn actually pass tis sem without resit any exam....dat will be reli THANK GOD!!!

Saturday, January 1, 2011

the very first day

Really can't imagine that my New Year is that BORING.....haiz...it's actually nothing special on this day..everything still the same...earth still turning...I am still breathing...people still working, chatting, shopping...what else can I expect??Actually, I don't have an answer for myself as well....

Doing the same old thing today....watching drama, online, and the most important is keeping my facebook updated....haha

So, now I only wish to have something busy with..at least I won't be that bored....

Friday, December 31, 2010

last thing in 2010

To be honest, I don't feel happy at this moment....I know there are lots of people now waiting for the countdown and enjoy their happy times with friends and families...but I am now alone in my small bedroom looking at my lappy...this is the most boring new year eve that I ever have in the last 20 years of my life...it is so quiet and there is no fireworks, no crowd, no shouting, no one sitting beside me, nothing at all....
Till now.....I am only realize and have the courage to admit that....ya...I am a LONER...for sure...and I feel bad for that...
Heart feels so uncomfortable and really do feel like crying now....I want to talk to someone but all of them are so busy for celebrating..they are all enjoy themselves and having laugh with their own friends and families..hell..there is absolutely no way that I am going to disturb them....and most important thing is..I really don't feel like talking now...
OMOG....I really sux....