Who do you think you are?!

This probably the most angry and sad Chinese new year I ever had in my entire life!

Who do you think you are?
I'm not trying to be rude here but
FUCK you!!
Even I am your own daughter, you don't have the right to judge me or to scold me in the first day of cny!!

Come on, old fashioned!!
Even if we doing something wrong,so what?!
It's not that I forcing your daughter to do so using a gun or blackmail her!!!
We both are wiling to do so and we are happy about it!!
Isnl't that own daughtet's happiness and future is more important that your face?!

Tell you what, I can actually straight fuck you in the phone or just hang it off
But I respect you, I respect you as a uncle, as my friend's father
However, you don't seem to care about my feeling and you take this as granted
Come on, I am not your family members, I am just one of your daughter's friend that you barely know about
And you scold me and question me like hell?!
Is it consider moral to you?
Did you learn your moral at school? Did your parents ever teach you how to respect others?
Even though you are older than me and you experience more than me
Even though you talking all that bullshit as a role of a father
However, I think it too over for me!!!
You don't own any rights to question me about your daughter's recent action!!
Isn't that you should ask yourself first? Why would your daughter become like this?

I can be very open to my parents, i told them everything about my friend and they didn't question me about this
In fact, they are very surprise to hear about your way to protect your daughter
It is ridiculous for them and this sound so old fashioned
You said you trust her and you give her full freedom
However, the time you questioned me about our simple and pure relationship, it shows that you don't have complete trust on her
Giving full freedom isn't mean that you can message me instead of calling me to inform us about your locations or what
It just doesn't mean that!!!

I understand how you feel as she the only child to you
However, I am also the only daughter to my parents
Why my parents can trust me completely and not disturbing my personal life or interfere with my friends or my social circle and you CAN'T do anything to that?!

If you want to talk, sure I can talk with you
Please do remember personal talk mean talk, not questioning or scolding
I don't want to fight with you
And please trust your daughter
She is a good girl and she does listen to you, she loves her family more than her friends
Lastly, please believe us
We are really truly friend, just friend.....

Watever

Whatever you said
Whatever you promised
Whatever you wanted to tell me
Whatever you going to tell me
Whatever is it
WHATEVER!!!

I will never trust you!!
I will never believe that!!

Because I know
It will NEVER going to happen!!!

You know it is impossible
You knew it!!!

Don't make fake promises
Don't give me false hope
Don't ever try to fool me
Don't pretend to be good to me
Don't lie to me
Don't!!
JUST DON'T DO THAT TO ME!!!

IT'S ENOUGH!!!

Am I expect too much from you?
Am I?
Probably I shouldn't expect things from you which I, myself couldn't even promise...
Ya, I am sorry
I thought you love me THIS much but it actually turns out the other way..
I am SORRY!!

Don't feel upset
Don't feel sad
Don't feel disappointed
Don't feel disgrace

It's all my fault
I put too much expectation on you
It's all about ME
I am so sorry about that..

Probably we shouldn't started out...
Probably......

fight fight fight!!

Oh my....why others are always better than me??
why am I always be the last??
I did work hard on it?? But why??

I don't care
I must fight back my dignity next sem!!
YOU!! no matter who is it...WAIT for it!!!
I will definitely break all your glasses!!!

FIGHTING!!!!

Should I be that angry? Should I?

I don't know

YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME!!!!

Don't try to judge me

Don't try to challenge me

Don't try to dictate me

I hate that!!!!

I DO CARE!!

Well, it really does ruin my mood. Come on, the reason I look for you is to get some comforts and soothe me..

It not that I doesn't care, it not that I am not nervous, it not that there still time for me to waste, it just no that!!

I don't need to tutor, I don't need a teacher, I don't need anyone to tell me what I have to do, what I should do or what exactly do I need to do. I'm not a child anymore, I can handle myself pretty well, I don't need any lessons for that, I'm fine with what I'm doing right now.

I, myself is a 21yrs old adult, I know how to manage my time, I know how to handle my study and of course, I do know what is NERVOUS!! YES, I am nervous and I really do. Sadly, you know nothing about it! You don't understand me!! What you said just now really ruin my mood!! Why you sound like I already give up everything and like I don't care, don't bother about it. Come on, I DO bother and I DO care!!

I really hate it!! Now, I really feel like giving up and not to do anything just because of what you said!! I thought you know me well but it turns out you doesn't, you just pretend that you know everything about me.....

I need comfort, I need people to support me, I need someone who care about me, I need someone who will always be there for me, I need someone who can understand me, I need someone who can encourage me...

I don't need someone who said I'm not nervous, I don't need someone to give me lessons. I DON'T NEED IT, HONESTLY!!

I am an adult and I know who am I, you don't need to worry about it!!

is that so?

I really can't understand why people are stubborn?

Why they can't view thing from the other side?

Why they keep thinking what they do are always right?

Why can't they try to change their track?

Why is that so?

Is it because they are who they are and they just can't be changed and can never be changed?

I don't know....but what I really know it....the world is much better and full of hope if you see thing from the other way around....

Life is beautiful and full of unexpectation....although it still full of challenges but it quite fun because you will never know how far you can go.....the most interesting part about life is....you will never know what lies in front of you if you keep backing up and not willing to take up your challenges.....

I am glad that I enjoy my life till fullness now and I am always ready for the challenges coming up....

YES!! I AM READY!!

COME ON!!!