last thing in 2010

To be honest, I don't feel happy at this moment....I know there are lots of people now waiting for the countdown and enjoy their happy times with friends and families...but I am now alone in my small bedroom looking at my lappy...this is the most boring new year eve that I ever have in the last 20 years of my life...it is so quiet and there is no fireworks, no crowd, no shouting, no one sitting beside me, nothing at all....

Till now.....I am only realize and have the courage to admit that....ya...I am a LONER...for sure...and I feel bad for that...

Heart feels so uncomfortable and really do feel like crying now....I want to talk to someone but all of them are so busy for celebrating..they are all enjoy themselves and having laugh with their own friends and families..hell..there is absolutely no way that I am going to disturb them....and most important thing is..I really don't feel like talking now...

OMOG....I really sux....