Stop or move??

Stop or move on? that is a BIG question for me

Actually, there should be no choice for me

This is what I chose, this is what I like, but it killing me now

I can never imagine that I will end up like this

Life is full of unwillingness, pressure, stress, weary....

I have only negative view about life at this moment and I don't like it, seriously

Sometimes, I actually look back, keep thinking that "am I actually making the right decision?", "what would I be if I not coming back?", "am I regretted?".....

I don't like answer question, especially question like this......I cannot regret for what I've chose...

BUT sometimes I feel like quit....am I really that fragile or maybe lazy?unable to take stress?useless?

YES, I am useless all the time....I can't do anything...I can't....

but I can't stop or quit...no because of myself but also for my family....my parents have high expectation on me...I can't disappoint them...I've once hurt them and let them down...I am not going to let that happen again...

sigh....nothing I can really do....what can I say....c'est la vie....